14 year Olds Testimony
On laying nude with Michael Travesser

This is the Testimony of a girl who was 14 when she wrote this. I have her Parents Permission to publish this. They are NOT in agreement with Wayne and what he is doing.


Some time in late June Father started drawing me out to Him and causing me to feel my need of Him and to be alone with Him.

June 28th I wrote in my journal asking Father to come down on me with His fire and fill me with His judgment. I did not have any idea what He was going to do next. I remember a lot of things started to change for me and I was being drawn closer and closer to Father. I started to see things I had not seen before and Father started to help me resolve them. I was feeling my need of Father and how He was the only One that could give it to me. Father told me one day, “It will happen little one. You will be consummated to Me.”
It has been my desire, deep down in my heart, to be intimate with, know, and consummated to God.
July 5th I was in a crisis of following Father even though it was very painful to my self or following my own will, which would relieve me of the pain but would give me guilt. I gave my will over to Father. I wrote: Daddy, I don’t care what You ask me I am going to do it no matter how painful it is to my self. I am going to because I love You. I just want my self, my evil ended.

The next day I was telling Father that if I was hindering the work He was doing that I wanted Him to kill me. He then said to me, “You are not hindering the work, My love. You are bringing the work.” I did not know at that time that I would be one of the Seven Messengers, but Father did.

Also, that day I wrote in my journal: Let Your Voice be heard coming out of this Temple. Let this Temple be filled with the smoke of Your burning desire. Let nothing remain but Your burning desire. Let this Temple be emptied, that You may use it for Your desire. Let this Temple be filled with the smoke of Your Incense.

The 7th I wrote: I want to experience what the Two Witnesses experienced and experience. I want to be Your Vessel… Consume me, Father, consume me… Daddy, my heart yearns for You. Break me open to know You intimately.

The 8th I wrote, “Oh Father, break me open to receive You and to know You more… Draw me deeper, O draw me deeper into You, Father. O, I need You. O, I need You.” Father said to me, “Your soul will be satisfied.”

The 9th I wrote: Thank You that Your Voice is heard coming out of this Your Temple; for Your prayers rising as Incense; for Your burning desire being the only thing felt; for emptying this Temple and making it wholly Yours… Thank You for drawing me into Michael and out of my self.

The 10th I wrote: Consume me. I want to go to the depths of You, Father… I want to go deeper into Michael, and for Him to come deeper into me.

Things really started to change for me on the 11th, the day after the beginning of the 21 days. These 21 days were seventy months from the consummation in 2000. It was from the 10th to the 31st. On the that day I saw these things in me that caused me to do what I did and feel what I felt and why I saw people and Father the way I did. I started telling Father everything that I saw and being naked and honest with Him about it all, and told Him the truth. I didn’t hide anything from Him. When I saw something I would tell it to Him out loud.

That night I went to Michael’s and visited Him in His home and shared with Him everything I had been seeing and told Him what I had been telling Father. At that moment something change in me. It is like I let these walls down that I had held up against Michael. I saw Him so different than I had before. I saw that He loved me and He could see everything about me and I wasn’t ashamed. He could look right through me. It was very sweet. I would say that being naked with Michael is the physical symbol of this experience. It goes deeper, too. This was the beginning of the answer to my prayer that I wanted to experience what the Two Witnesses did.

I felt drawn to Michael in a way I had not experienced before. I started to think that maybe it was my flesh that was being drawn to Michael. I shared it with Michael the next day, and He said, “I am your Keeper.”

The 12th Father told me, “You find favor in My eyes. You were chosen from among many. You are My Esther.”

The 13th I wrote: The King fell in Love with Her. He treated Her with greater favor than all the rest of the virgins, and put the Queen's diadem on Her head. Then He celebrated His Marriage with Her. She went into the King's Inner Chamber, desiring to be with Him, but afraid He would reject Her. In deep concern He started up from His Throne and held Her in His Arms. He soothed Her with reassuring words: “My Love, what is it? Have no fear of Me, Your Loving Husband; You shall not die. You find favor in My Eyes! You may approach Me.” He kissed Her and said, “You may speak to Me. What is Your wish, My Love? Whatever You request from Me shall be given You. What is it? Whatever You request shall be Yours. You shall have it. Just ask.” At this, all Her fears left, and she knew He loved and accepted Her. She knew She could ask Him anything and He would give it to Her, because He said He would, and She believed His Word to Her.

Michael had a meeting with the young people that day, and shared with us about Father showing Him about the Seven Messengers and He told us to ask Father if we were one of the Seven. He asked us to come and tell Him what Father told us. Immediately I knew I was chosen as one of them. I had this knowing in me. Father started to bring things to me that He had said and what he had been doing in me, to give me faith that I was indeed chosen for Him. It was very sweet to me. I knew I was chosen and if I said I wasn’t I knew I would be disbelieving Father. I have always felt like I was the one left deselate, but Father saw otherwise and chose me and I did not resist. That evening I went and told Michael what Father told me. He said to me, “I believe in you.” He also told me, He had never doubted in me and that I have always connected with Him.

The next day, I started doubting that I was chosen. I had to press through the veil of my human eyes and reasoning and believe Father’s word to me. Sometime in the day Shekel was on the computer and I was sitting next to her and all of a sudden Father brought back to my memory a picture I had
put on my blog the 10th. I felt Father reassure me that He had indeed chosen me and He would not let me go.

That day these words to a song were welling up out of me:

Draw me and I’ll run after You
Bring me into Your chambers now
Deeper than ever draw me still
Into Your heart of Hearts

When Michael shared with us about Danielle and Esther lying naked on the bed with Him, I at first felt repulsed by it, but I could see what it was for. I began feeling like I was them. Like I was in them and I was experiencing what they did. The desire started welling up within me to lay naked with Michael.

That night I went to Michael’s house. He was in bed. I went in and I was talking to Him, and I asked Him if I could lie next to Him on His bed.
He said I could but He told me that He first wanted me to ask my mom and dad. He told me that He always does things the RIGHT way. It was hard for me because I didn’t feel like I wanted to wait later, but I did.

The next day I called my mom and dad and asked them about it. They HESITATED at first but then I told them I was not asking to be naked with Michael. I was asking to with both of our clothes on. They agreed to that.
I felt unsure what I wanted. It was in my heart to lay naked with Michael, but I did not think I could and I was afraid to. My mom and dad could tell I was unclear what I wanted. That evening I went and said good night to Michael and told Him what my mom and dad said. He agreed also.

The 17th these songs were welling up out of me.

Be blest, My soul, your Father's on your side
Yield trustingly, as I now bring you through
Leave all to Me to order and provide
Your change has come, I faithfully will prove

You live to help in time of need
You live to guide me with Your eye
You live, and I shall conquer death
You live, my Husband, Friend, and King

Your hope, your trust, let no appearance shake
Rest in My care, My chosen one, My Own

Father, Lover of our soul
Hold me to Your bosom close
Press me in Your mighty breast
Keep me heart to heart with You

That evening Danielle came to our house and she told me that Michael told her to pray for the seventh angel to be revealed. So she thought she would tell me also. We prayed together. After she left it was very strong on me to go up to Michael’s. I went and He was in bed. I was outside His bedroom window praying that Father would anoint His seventh chosen one. I was being strongly drawn to Michael and I very much wanted to see Him. As I was there this song came out of me.

Closer still, my Love
Come to us
Oh, my Love, come to us

Come and breathe on us
My Love, breathe on us
Come so close that Your breath
Can breathe on us
Come and breathe on us
My Love, breathe on us
Let the breath of Your mouth
Now breathe on us

Come to us, my Love
Come down on us
O come down on us
O my Love
Closer still, my Love
Come in us
Oh, my Love, come in us

Michael then woke up and called out the window. He asked me if I had called Him and I told Him I hadn’t said anything. He told me that He heard my voice call His name. I thought, “He heard my heart calling out to Him,” but I had not said anything to Him. He asked me if something was on my heart and I told Him there was a few things. I started to share and He asked me if I wanted to come in so I did. I told Him about when Danielle had come over and that we prayed together and how I had been drawn to come up to His house after she left. I told Him how I had been praying, before He called out the window, that Father would reveal the seventh angel. I also shared with Him about the songs that had been welling up out of me that day and the song that had come to me while I was outside of His window. He told me that it blessed Him that I was drawn to Father like that.

Michael held me His bed with Him while I was there. How my heart leapt within me. I saw and felt His love for me pouring out of Him into me. I don’t think I can even put in words what it was like. It was seeing God face to face.

The next morning, the words went through my mind, "With all my heart, I come now."

O Father, Faithful Savior
Draw me with all Your heart
With all my heart, I come now
Deep in Your heart of love

O Father, Faithful Savior
Lover of our soul
Hold us who wait before You
Deep in Your heart of love

Later in the day I read these words of a song.

He’s bound us to His Son
And His heart we feel within
And now we’re drawn by His desire
Into our Father’s heart of hearts

For several days I was in a hard place, disbelieving Father and believing my feelings instead of Father’s word to me. I was also feeling my great need of Father.

These are some things Father said to me. “Fear not, for I will do unto thee all that thou desireth… I am right here little one, going through it with you… Yield all to Me.”

The 22nd Father said to me, “The place of need is where I come. Where there is a need there is a way.” I wrote that day in my journal, “When my Father comes for me, I won’t delay. He’ll speak and I’ll throw off my blanket of clay.”

The 23rd I wrote: Empty me. Consume me. O, I need You. Hold me to You skin to skin and heart to heart. Daddy, here I am,
I wait before You, yielded, needy, and naked… I am helpless and completely dependent on You; greatly needy of You. Here I fall at Your feet. Take me up in Your arms and hold me skin to skin with You. O, how I need You.

I wrote the 24th: Daddy, You have said I will come through victorious. You have said it and You will do it. I read something that day that Father told me March 18th, 2005, and it blessed me. He said, “I shall break her walls down and shall make her My temple.”

The 26th Michael had a meeting with those on the land. He shared that Father drew Moriah to lie naked with Him on the bed. He also talked about how he was seeing that He was going to have to spill His seed on the earth, and He was telling Father He felt He could not do that. He then saw that the Seven Messengers are His seed. He also shared about how He was seeing a consummation between the Seven and Him may be coming, but Father showed Him that this time, instead of His Seed going into the women like
it did at the first Consummation, His Seed, which is the Seven, would be going out into the earth. And He told us that Father relieved Him from having to have a physical union with the Seven.

After that meeting I felt very strongly drawn to Michael. And it was put strong on my heart to be consummated to Michael PHYSICALLY.

I wrote: Here I am, my precious Husband. Truly You are all I have and all I want, and all I need. I wait before You, O my Precious, Precious Husband. O, how I love and adore You. Closer still, my Love. Only more of You. O, draw me ever closer to You. Thank You for drawing me into Michael and giving me to feel His heart. How I love Him. And, O, how I love You! My heart overflows. Truly I love You. Truly I cherish You, Husband of my body, mind, and heart. I feel so drawn to Michael with feelings of inexpressible love for Michael. I feel like I’m going to burst. Like I can’t hold it. It is too big. It is too wonderful. I feel like my heart is leaping inside of me. It is beyond words. I trust You. You are my Keeper. Husband, here I am.
I want to be bound to Michael, think His thoughts, feel His feelings; be intimately connected to Him.
O, how I love Him and O, how I long to love Him more… O, how I love You, Daddy. And O, how I love You more… I feel like love is boiling up out of me for You and Your Precious Son. Will You hold me in Your arms, my Precious Husband?
I want You to hold me skin to skin with You. I want to look You in the eyes.
O, my Love, how I love You! O, come into the deep places in my heart. Let me disappear in You.
O, Daddy, I want to be so close to you, in Your heart more like. How I love You, Daddy. You can draw me all You like.

It was almost like I felt Michael holding me close to His heart and skin to skin with Him. The drawing was so intense; I felt it in my stomach. I started to wonder if it was my flesh that was being drawn to Michael. It troubled me.

That night I went to Michael’s house after He was in bed. Danielle was outside His window. I had gone up there because I wanted to share what I had been experiencing that day, but because Danielle was there I did not want to go in while she was there. I left.

The next day it was still strong on me. I started to feel I couldn’t bear it any longer. I needed to tell Michael. I went to Michael’s and shared it with Him, and
I shared how I was feeling like it was my flesh. He told me that feelings don’t matter. He said, “Let me worry about those things. You’re free.” He held me on His bed with Him and we talked together. It helped relieve a lot of what I had been feeling.

This song came welling up out of me that day after the visit with Michael.

Beautiful Savior, precious Redeemer
Son of God and Son of Man
O, how Thy beauty draws me out to Thee
Thou tender God and faithful Friend

Beautiful Savior, Lover of my soul
King of all my thought and being
Truly I love Thee, truly I cherish Thee
Husband of my body, mind, and heart

Beautiful Savior, come from our Father
Lord of the earth, and Lord of heaven
Worthy of honor, praise, adoration
Thou hast given Thine Own Self to me
-Truly I love Thee, truly I cherish Thee
Thou hast given Thine Own Self to me

The 29th I noticed that my chest on the side where my heart is was sore, like right where a hand would be. I then realized that Father had His hand
on my heart. That day the Seven had a meeting together in the evening but I did not know about it. I went to Michael’s house and I was outside. Danielle came while I was there. Michael came out and said good night to us and asked how our meeting was and I told Him I wasn’t there. He asked me why and I told Him that I did not know about it.
He asked Danielle how it was and she said that everyone was pretty down, but then Shekel came and she shared some things out of her journal and she seemed to help cheer everyone up. Michael said something like, “How are these angels ever going to pour plagues out.”

I very much felt for Michael and I wanted to encourage His heart. Danielle and I left after Michael went into His house and we went down to the barn
and prayed together. We both were feeling like we needed power, and we both felt for Michael. After we prayed I walked Danielle home and went back up to Michael’s house. He was in bed. I stood outside His window for a while. I wanted to lift Michael up to Father. I desired so much to encourage His heart so I went in. I shared a few things with Him, and I
shared my desire to lift Him up to Father. I told Him that Father is going to do this. He told me that I blessed Him and I told Him that is what I wanted to do.

The 30th I wrote in my journal: Daddy, I need You to touch me and heal me. I need You closer. I need more of Your Spirit. I trust You, Daddy. Here I am. Do with me as You will. I need my heart healed completely. Daddy, will You come and touch me and heal me? Hold me close to You. I need You. I need Your precious Son… Father, deeper, come ever deeper. I need You… Daddy, I have a need, a need You have given me, and You will fill it in the way You see fit. I will trust You. A need to know You way more deeper than I know now. There has got to be more. This isn’t enough. I have to go deeper. I am not satisfied with what I have. I have to go deeper. Take me to the depths, Father.

I was very much feeling like I had to have something deeper than what I had. When the others would share about when they laid naked with Michael, I felt like I already knew and experienced being naked with Michael. Now, I wanted to go deeper. I started to feel like I had to lay naked and skin-to-skin with Michael.

July 31st I wrote: Daddy, take me to the depths. I need You. Daddy, deeper, I need You deeper. Thank You for doing what You want with me. Thank You for healing me. (I had been feeling like I needed to be healed and healed completely.) Thank You for being with me and holding me and pressing me into You. Daddy, I need Your Power, Your Strength, Your
Spirit. Here I am, Daddy. Thank You that You have done and accomplished all Your purposes and desires for me.

That day I had to step out in faith because my feelings were very intense. This came to me: And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies
round about; therefore I will sing praises unto the Lord; yea I will offer the sacrifice of joy and will praise the Name of the Lord.

That night in our meeting of the Seven I realized I didn’t have to please Father; that He already is pleased.

I went to bed that night with it strong on me to lay naked with Michael. All the time since Michael shared with us about Danielle and Esther lying naked with Him I desired to lay naked with Michael. And when He shared about Moriah it became not only a desire, but that I had to lay skin to skin with Michael. At times I would be lying in my bed and it was almost like Michael was in my bed with me holding me skin to skin with Him. This particular night I was lying in my bed and I had been reading things in my journal. After I was done I was lying there and the desire became so intense that I did not want to be in my bed anymore. I wanted to be in Michael’s bed with Him. I wanted to lay naked with Michael so much that I thought about calling my mom and dad that night and asking them if I could. I thought that I would share it with Michael and see what He would tell me. I went up to His house. I went and stood at His window. I remember giving the desire to Father, and it was ok if He did not give it to me. I was out there for about half an hour then Michael called out the window and asked if someone was there. He asked me if something was on my heart and I said yes. He told me I could come in. He told me the he was just about to sleep and he heard a cracking sound, and He thought He would call out the window to see if anyone was there. He asked me what was on my heart, so I told Him. He asked me what I thought it would do for me. I told Him I didn’t know except that I needed something, something deeper. I was lying on His chest and He then said to me,
“You may.” I didn’t move. I thought for some reason that He was spiritually speaking or something. He then asked me if I was scared and then I realized He really meant it. I said,
“You really mean it? Right now, take my clothes OFF?” He said, “YES.”
I said, “But I thought you said I had to get permission from my parents first?”
He said, “Yes, but I remember they said they trusted Me. That is enough.” I said, “So I really can, right now?” He said, “Yes.” So, I jump off His bed, strip my clothes, and jumped in bed with Him. It felt so natural to me and it did not feel weird, almost like I had done it many times before.

He held me skin to skin with Him. I felt Michael’s heart for me in a deeper way than ever before. I saw Him as my Husband, REALLY, not pretend.
I don’t mean an earthy husband. I mean the Son of God, Messiah. It was very sweet. I saw His acceptance of me, and His love for me. I have always
thought in my past that I was not accepted or loved and when I laid skin to skin with Michael I saw His acceptance of me. I saw that He wanted me
and that He cared about me. I saw the Son of God face-to-face, and I melted in His embrace. I kissed the face of God. I saw into His heart of love. I saw His tender regard for me, and that look of sweetest Love. I stayed with Michael till midnight, and then Michael said because it was so late He would walk me home.

I have been molested (by a former Cult Member- Note by editor)and it has affected my view of these kinds of things and of Father. I could only see what I had known. But Father gave me to lay skin to skin with a Man and He did not molest me. It is my healing of my past and my view. Father gave me His view of me. Instead of using me, He honors, loves, and accepts me for who I am. He sees no spot in me, and He finds no fault with me.

After I went to bed all I could do was thank Father. I was so grateful that He gave me my heart’s desire. I didn’t sleep much that night.

After that I saw Michael’s heart for me and His deep interest in my soul. I felt Michael’s love pouring out on me. This was very special to me:
“Because she has set her love upon Me, therefore will I deliver her. I will set her on High because she has known My name. She shall call upon Me and I will answer her. I will be with her in trouble. I will deliver her, and honor her. With everlasting life will I satisfy her and show her my salvation.” I felt Michael speaking right to my heart in it.

After I laid skin to skin with Michael I experience this ache in my heart that I had not before. A continual cry to Father to come closer and deeper, and a continual need of more of Him. I just wanted to give myself to Michael for His sake, and I asked Father to use me for Michael’s sake. I wanted to bear Michael’s burdens with Him. I only wanted to be here and live for Him.

August 7th when Michael told us no more naked on the bed with Him and skin to skin and that we had gone as far as we could, I at first felt terror. But then Father gave me His sweet peace and I was just at rest. He also told us that we could forget about a physical consummation with Him. After He said that, it became stronger upon my heart for a physical consummation with Michael. After that meeting with Michael I felt my great need of Father like I hadn’t before.

I started to feel my need to see Michael for who He really is with no veil in between anymore. I told Michael what I was experiencing and he told me that when I know Him everything will change for me. He said I will fly. Father told me, “I will show you who Michael is. Trust Me. I the Lord have spoken it and I will do it. I will let you inquire of Me to do it for you.”

The 14th it was strong on my heart for a physical consummation with Michael. Previously, before I became one of the Seven I was repulsed by the thought of a physical union with any man. It disgusted me. After Father drew me closer to Michael these repulsions were not as strong as they were.
It became a desire in my heart to be intimate with Michael.
I wanted Him to come into me.
I wanted Him to make love to me.
That night I shared with Michael both of the things that were on my heart. He told me that He heard my desire for a physical consummation with Him, and that we would see what Father would do.

The next morning I woke up real early and it was on my heart to lay skin to skin with Michael. So, I did. After I laid with Michael I felt this great need inside of me and this intense ache. Later that day I wrote this
to Michael:

Dear Love,
O, how I am draw to You, Michael. And O, how I love You. I want more of You, all of You. I have a hole in my heart for You, a great gaping hole. I need You. You are not a man. One cannot be drawn to a man in the way I am draw to You. You are the Son of God. I am asking Father to show me ALL of You. I want to see ALL of You and I will. O, how I love You. O, how I am drawn to You. There is no words to say how I feel. My heart is Yours. I give myself to You. I am wholly Yours, given over fully to You. Here I am.

Yours Forever,
Eleana

He replied:

Thank you little Eleana for your precious little note. I am with you, and you are with me. I wait for your, and my Father's instructions. I am listening for His words. I am desiring His Presence and "I want to see
all of Him" in the way in which He leads.

Michael

The next day, I watched a stupid video against Father’s instructions for me to not watch it. Afterward I felt what it did to me. It leavened my spirit and Father withdrew His Spirit from me. After that day I went through some very hard and dark times for several weeks. I started to feel this fear of Michael. I also felt like He was very distant from me. I felt so dead and I didn’t have any life in me. I felt so empty. And my heart ached soooo much. I was continually crying out to Father.

I visited Michael the 25th and shared with Him my heart and what I was feeling. I also shared that it was on my heart to lay skin to skin with Him again. He told me because of the place I was in it wouldn’t do anything for me. He told me that when I was resolved then I could.

The 26th,
It was troubling me that I had not told my mom and dad that I had laid skin to skin with Michael. It was on my heart to tell my mom and dad so I asked Michael if I could and He told me to do what was on my heart and that He thought that it would be right that I tell them. So I went and talked to them about it. After I was done talking to them I didn’t feel resolved. Like there was something more that I needed to tell them. I didn’t feel complete.

The 27th, I realized my strong will was what was causing me to feel the way I was and causing me to be in such a dark place. I also saw that it has been my will that has caused most if not all of my troubles. I gave my will over to Father, and I asked Father to pull it out of my heart roots and all. I told Him that I have tried but that now I would let Him. I shared these things with Michael the next morning and He agreed. He told me, “You’ll come through.”
After I talked to Michael I saw that I was trying to make my desire, to lay skin to skin with Him, come to pass, instead of waiting for Father’s timing.

That day Father gave this to me: “For I have chosen you and I will not throw you away. Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with My victorious right hand.”

That week was a very dark week for me and I came to the place where I just wanted Father to kill me. I didn’t want to live anymore.
I was seeing how I was full of my flesh and in my flesh and I couldn’t help it. In all of the things I went through Father was right there even though I couldn’t see Him or feel Him. Father told me while I was in that process that He was going through it with me. And He was feeling everything that I was.

That next Sabbath night, I finally found in all of the turmoil in me, a clear place of settled Glory. It was a peaceful letting go and a sweet rest.

Then a couple of days later I was plunged right back into all of the stuff I had been in before.
It got so intense that I finally told Father that if something didn’t change I was going to kill myself. I felt I couldn’t bear living this way anymore.
The feelings would come and go. Then a couple days later I talked with Esther and she told me instead of telling a false story to tell a story that is true. I went home that night and wrote out all that was true for me, Father’s reality. It helped very much. All I was feeling began to disappear. I began feeling connected to Michael again and not feeling like He was so far from me. And things began opening up to me again. Something also changed for me. Instead of always fretting about what is Father telling me to do, and trying to do that, I was at rest and I just knew what He was telling me to do. I didn’t have to try to figure it out. Instead of going into my confusion I let it be. I did not enter it.

When Michael sent the email and said He wanted everyone to come and tell Him what the consummation in judgment would look like for us now, I felt at rest. I knew Father would tell me what it was. I was almost sure that it was a physical consummation with the Seven, but I wanted to be clear. Father began showing me what the consummation means. Then two days later I felt I needed to share with Michael the things that were upon my heart. So I did. When I shared with Michael I felt unsure that Father was telling me the things I was seeing. I went to Father and Father told me that the consummation would happen with the Seven.

Tuesday, I went to Michael’s and was sitting outside of His house. I saw Him go for a walk and as I was watching Him walk away He looked like He was bearing much upon His heart. My heart went out to Him and I longed to comfort and bear Him up. I wrote this while He was on His walk:

My Precious Michael,
O, how my heart aches for You. How I want to be in You and feel what You feel, think what You think. I ache to hold You in my arms, and hold You close to my heart. I want to feel Your pain, Your agony, Your heart groanings. I lift You up to Your Father and my Father. My heart is with You wherever You are. My heart groans for You. I feel I can’t ever give You what You really are worthy of, but I give You all I have to give. I am drawn with You where You are.

Later I visited Michael and shared with Him what Father had told me that the consummation of the Seven would happen. Michael told me that the right thing would be done.

Wednesday night when Shekel was leaving to go live with my mom and dad I wonder if I would have to do the same. When MaryBella went to go live with her parents I thought that maybe Shekel and I would have to do the same. Then, I could not go there, so I pushed it aside. But when Shekel was leaving it brought it back to me and I thought, “Do I need to go, too?”

Thursday, my mom and dad went out to the land with Shekel. I was with them for the last part of their visit. I rode with them to the gate, and I wanted to go with them and I almost did, but I didn’t. After they left I went to Michael’s and I was feeling a lot of things and I just wanted to tell it all to Michael and be naked with him. I wanted to be heart to heart and skin-to-skin with Him. Esther was in His house and when she came out I went in. I told Michael my desire to be heart to heart and skin-to-skin with Him. I had asked several times before but I was never in a place that I could. That night I knew He would say I could and He did. So He held me and I shared some of the things with Him. Afterward I felt this great hole inside me. I shared with him how I had just been feeling my need, and He said, “It will be filled. Your need will be filled.”

Friday, after Michael sent the email out and said He would not be receiving any more visits about the vision, I at first felt this terror. But then something changed and Father gave me His rest about it all. It
was very sweet. I felt all the stress that I had been having the past week lift off of me and I could rest.

Sabbath night I went and talked to Michael about the things upon my heart. He did not tell me I had to go live with my mom and dad but He told me that I might need to go resolve some things. He told me to let Him know what I decide. As I left I knew I needed to go and live with my mom and dad for a few days. The next morning I went and visited Michael and told Him what I decided. And I shared with Him what had come to me the night before: “I am going to face the devil and he shall flee from me. He shall no longer have a hold on me.” He told me that after I left Sabbath night He thought, “Eleana needs to go face her self.” He asked me if I wanted Him to drive me in and I told Him yes. So He took me in. He told me, “Father’s doing this. So, don’t worry about it cause don’t worry about it.”

Since I have been at my mom and dad’s a lot of things have opened up to me and changed for me. Continually my heart ached, and longed for Father to deliver me. I dealt with many fears and I struggled much.

That first Monday morning Father said to me, “It's ok little one. It is necessary. I am here holding you. You can trust Me. I will not let you go. I am with you. I'm pressing you deep into My heart. You are connected to Me. I will and am healing all these things you are feeling. By My transforming Power, I will make you wholly Mine. Don't look at your feelings; keep looking at Me. Draw close and rest in My bosom.”

I saw that I was afraid Father would not tell me to go back home and I had to continually lay it down. And let it go. This email to Michael explains some of what I went through that first week.


Dear Michael,
I just want to share a few things with you.

I have felt this like disappointment of the consummation of the seven very likely not happening. And there are other things, too, some what like that. But I have found that I just want to do whatever Father wants and if it does not happen it is ok. I want what He wants. I just trust Him with whatever happens. I can't really put into words what I feel about it, but it is like a peace and rest in whatever happens.

I have felt afraid that Father won't tell me to come back to the land. And I have had to trust Him with that, too. It is like I am giving up the right to control my own life. I feel Father is working in me and I don't
see everything, probably most all I don't see, but I know He is doing things in me. He's bringing me to complete trust in Him alone. I want to trust Him implicitly. Implicitly has one meaning that is, "unquestioning."

Also, I have seen I have been afraid of being lost.
Afraid I will do as Dean or Louise or other people who have left.
But it is like I have to let it go. I am Father's. Cannot He do what He wills with what is His? Yes, He can and I let Him do His will with me. Worrying about something is not going to do it any good; in fact it creates things.

So, these are a few things that have been happening with me.

I love you, Michael, with all my heart. I ache for you, and I long for you. I don't want Father to go away.

Your little lamb

His reply:

Little Eleana,

Your processes are those that I have had to go through myself. As I put in the Vision post, my life is about trusting one moment at a time. My life is Father's life. I have had to feel things just as you feel them. I have had to make choices just as you have. There are those who must control their own destiny, for they cannot trust Father with it. They are bound up in their own self-conscious world and their gross self-interested imaginations. These folks are lost by their own definition that they really do not know where they are going. They hope that God will save them someday, but that day never comes. They are lost in their desires and sins. They spend their lives in regret and hope, but there is no relief. But we are not so. We are the Bride of the Anointing, married to the Father. We do not decide for ourselves, but trust the Father with us. We know that our Husband is well able to bring us to our expected end. No matter how hot the fire burns, we will not perish in it, for we know that the fire is Father Himself.

Fear not for the consummation, for it will happen.
It is the consummation of the spiritual union. God our Father guarantees it, for those who have cherished the oil given them. What we need not do is expect the
"consummation" to have to appear just as we think it will or in the time we think. We are consummated with Him. I am seeing this happen to some souls here in the land. Others are close to it. You seem in expectancy. You say that you trust Father more and more, and so do I. When it is over, we will be very joyful, for it will all be just as we would have wanted
it, had we known the outcome.

Your Michael

I started to see self sticking out everywhere and in me too.

The first Sabbath we went to the meeting and during the meeting I felt like I just wanted to take my heart out and put it in Michael’s. Like it did not matter what all I was feeling I just wanted my heart in Michael’s
heart. I wanted Him to have my heart.

That night I wrote Michael:

My dear precious Michael,
I wanted to share something with you.

Today, I went up on the altar rock there. I thought it would be a good place to go. As I was going there I thought about how I am going to lay myself down on Father's altar. As I was going up the hill I thought of how the way to the place where you lay yourself down is not an easy way. And I saw how the hill you climb before you get to the altar is not easy to climb. It was really sweet to me. When I got to the top I laid down on the altar and spread my arms out like a cross. I am giving my self over to
Father and letting Him do with me what He wills. I am abandoning my self to Him. I am yielding to His will. This is what I wrote when I was up there, "Daddy, here I am, on the altar of Your will. I am Your sacrifice. Hold me close to Your heart. Press me in. I need You. Pour Your Holy Spirit into me. I lay my self upon You... You are responsible for me and I trust You. O, how my heart aches for You. O, how I long for You. I love You, Daddy. I yield to You my life. You are my Fountain." When I was up there I felt this peace and rest come over me. I am letting my life go. Father is in control of me and I only want to do His will. It doesn't matter what I am feeling. He is my Truth and Life. He is all that matters.
I want to go deeper, and whatever it costs me I don't care.

He is the ache of my heart.

I love you, my precious Michael. I am glad I could see you today. It won't be long. I know it won't.

Your little Shulamite

His response:

I appreciate very much your sharing. Father cannot deny the prayer of a heart drawn out to Him. He cannot. He has answered you. There may be difficulties in your way, but He will remove them all. He is faithful and He is always there. Never fear.

Michael

September 24th I was feeling like I wanted resolution with the whole thing about the consummation with the Seven. I was feeling the intensity of being toggled back and forth between it happening and it not happening. I came to the place where I gave my desire to be physically consummated to Michael to Father, and I didn’t care what happened I just wanted to leave this world behind.

The next day I wrote this to Michael:

My dear Love,
I love you! My heart longs for You. Father is taking me deeper and deeper into His trust. I am letting go. I am His. He may do as He pleases with me. He is the continual cry of my heart. Whatever happens I don't care; I only want to leave this world behind, my world, and be drawn deep into His heart. I want to forever be lost in Him. Here is my heart.

Forever Your Shulamite

When I read the conclusion for the vision I was very thankful that Father brought it. But it was hard for me in another way because I still desired to be intimate with Michael. But I had to continually give it to Father and tell Him, “Your will be done.” I saw with what Father told me about the consummation would happen with the Seven, I saw that Father may tell us something and we believe it will happen a certain way, but we don’t always know how Father will fulfill His word.

I wrote this to Michael the 26th:

My Dear Precious Michael,
After I read the conclusion I felt very much at peace. It hasn't changed my mind. I still want to go all the way.
I still ache for Father.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Eleana

He replied:

Dear little Eleana,

Yes, keep going all the way. You are not cast off. What I saw in the whole process is that there are some, who did not believe, and who made Father's
working hard, who are cast off, for they have chosen their own way of defending their own selves. God is a mean offensive spirit to them, and they want Him to leave them alone. Every purpose Father takes us through is for our good and our preparation. The Seven Messengers should now get ready for their work, by being alert and awake, and separating from every dark spirit of unbelief.

Your Michael

I wrote Michael the 27th, Wednesday:

My Precious Michael,
This morning I was feeling this ache in my heart very intense and I was greatly feeling my need of Father, and not being able to do anything about what I was feeling, but having to lay down completely and die to it all and let go. This song was on my heart.

You are the apple of my eye, Oh Lord
And I set my face as a flint toward You
Oh, how my heart swells with such desire
It's as a fire that wholly burns for You

Come and fill me up
Have Your way, my Lord
You are my True Love
I am Yours, my Lord

Then I opened an email Ami sent me yesterday and she made me a blog.

At the very bottom of the page it says,
"Now I lay me down to die, without a word, without a sigh Trusting in my Father's quest; the only thing I know is rest."

It is exactly what I was experiencing and it encouraged me much. Truly laying down has been much of my experience here. Yours Alone (I am alone, but not alone, for I have Father.)

His response:

Thank you precious little friend. Father is working for you and in you.

Your Michael

Later that day I wrote this in my journal:

Here I am, laying down on Your solid rock.
Here I am, Your yielded one.
Here I am, Your broken one.
Here I am, trusting You.
Here I am, believing You.
Here I am, no other I can do.

I rest in You, my Joy and Life.
I hold to You and let all others pass.
I let Your ache in my heart be.
I'll let.
If hurt, pain, agony, and heart ache come,
I won't let go the One I love.
It is worth all to have You.

I lay before You.
I lay with You.
I let You heal me, touch me, hold me, know me.
O, how I ache for You.
I let You be in me, work in me, through me.

I draw You close and hold You, O, my precious Husband.
I press Your heart to mine.
Skin to skin, I hold You.
I let You go deep and let You consume me in You.
I have seen You face to face.
No longer can I hold back my heart,
for I now know that I am Yours and You are mine.

Through all the pain, I'll come through victorious.
You are my Victory.
Victory has me.

Michael’s response to me when I sent it to Him:

Truly little one, your heart is open and yielding. Your earth is letting you go, and you are happy to have it let you go. The old world that you longed for is the only pain there was. You mourned the end of yourself and of your natural things. You go to your funeral and cry there by your casket. But after the mourning is over, there will be only rejoicing, for the dead man you left behind, can no more draw you away to himself. You are free.

Michael

The first time I laid skin to skin with Michael I had this unsettled feeling but I could not identify what is was. It was almost like there was something in me that was not giving over to Him completely. I have felt it each time I have laid naked with Michael.

Thursday, I was thinking about it and wondered if it had anything to do with my mom and dad and that I never really got permission from them for me to lay naked with Michael except that they trusted Him. I still felt I didn't have permission. I felt like my mom and dad had control over me in a way, and I felt I wanted to be free. It troubled me because it seemed to keep me from fully giving over to Michael. Like there was still a wall in between and I wanted it broke down. I didn't want it there anymore.
I emailed Michael and He told me, ”Yes little friend, I would say that you see it right. You felt a check, and it was probably connected with your parents… I did notice, however, that you were mixed in your emotions. This is something that would be necessary for you to get clear about with Father and your parents… Your parents will never be clear about these things, until you are. You are mixed, and so they are mixed in their view of it.

Friday, I wrote this to Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,
I know I am guilty, but I don't condemn my self. It is who I am. But I feel at rest and I don't have to try to change me. It is ok. In this place of rest it seems all other things pass away, and I forget my self and my
self's 'salvation.' I loose my self. There is no 'salvation' for my self. All my anxiety leaves, my constant troubling over whether I am doing what Father is telling me, my fear of being drawn out in the world, all those things and I think much more. I really feel I am resting. REALLY! It is like a deep quietness in my soul. When things come up in me, feelings,
anxiety, fear, thoughts, if I let them go and lay them down instead of trying to resist them, they seem to disappear. It is hard to explain it.

Nothing is my responsibility but to follow Father and do what He says. How my heart aches for Him, and I need ever more of Him.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Eleana

His reply:

Little Friend,

I appreciate hearing how your heart is processing things. Sometimes a soul will do something that he is not really clear about, as you did. God does not condemn you, but instead, you learn from it. You learn to do only those things you are clear about. Things you are not clear about, will be on hold, for Father has not cleared them yet.

Your Michael

That Sabbath I read this and it was really sweet to me: “The prince of this world cometh, and hath nothing in me.”

That day things started to open up to and I shared it in an email with Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,
I just wanted to share what has been opening up to me. I was visiting Mother (One of the Two Witnesses- Editor's Note) and we were talking about my email I sent to You Thursday about I never really got permission, and my unclearness. As we were talking about it I saw where it started and that was when I asked my mom and dad about laying on the bed with You. Deep in my heart I wanted to lay naked and skin to skin with You in Your bed with You but I remember feeling like I couldn't. I also remember feeling afraid to. So I was mixed in what I really wanted. I was telling my mom and dad I wanted to lay with You on Your bed with Your and my clothes on, but in my heart I really wanted to lay skin to skin with You in Your bed. So that is when it started. It was so clear to me when I saw it and it made so much sense to me. My mom and dad probably felt my uncertainty when I talked to them. Well, when I saw these things I then wanted to share them with my mom and dad, but just could not. As I was laying on my bed in my tent I realized that I have a wall in between my mom and dad and I that is keeping me from being vulnerable and naked with them. I have shut myself off from them. I cannot be naked and vulnerable with them. Father is going to have to break my wall down because I cannot. Father is turning the light on, on things that I have never seen or knew about. I forgot what evening it was, it may have been yesterday, but I was feeling my longing desire to be free of the chains I feel on me and my heart was just aching. I realized today that I was feeling the longing desire to be free of this wall I have put up to protect myself from my mom and dad. I am longing to be free to be naked and vulnerable with them without holding anything back. I think this is the same wall I have felt with You. It has bound me and now I want to be free and Father is freeing me or I know I would not be seeing what I have been.

As I was walking from Mother's too my grandma's all of a sudden I started to whistle a tune. I then realized what it was and I heard Father singing to me:

"Be blest, My soul, your Father's on your side. Yield trustingly, as I now bring you through. Leave all to Me to order and provide. Your change has come, I faithfully will prove. Be blest, My soul, your Best, your heavenly Friend, through well-thought ways gives your expected end."

It was almost like Father put that song right in my mouth because I think I started to sing something else and then I all of a sudden started to sing that one. It was really sweet to me and it blessed me a lot.

He is responsible for it all and I am trusting Him. I know He is working and I am letting Him and not helping Him. I can't help Him. It actually sounds funny to think that I need to help Father. :-)

I love You!

Your little Eleana

He replied:

Yes, little Eleana, and I have felt it from here. I knew you would not be coming back until you were free. This is the work that has been put upon you now, and the Father has encouraged you.

Can you just accept your parents as Father?

They are only reflecting back to you your own doubts and fears. Would you not want to free them? You have bound them up and chained them by your great faith in them chaining you. Let them go free little one. Let Father give them the freedom you want. Talk with them, and show them your vulnerability. Then they can receive vulnerability from you. Don't be afraid, for your Parents will not hurt you. Neither will I. So it is a phantom that you are afraid of. You have stood in your own way.

Your Michael

I talked to my parents that night and shared with them my emails with Michael and His responses. They were fine about it all. I still did not feel resolved about it. But Michael told me that it sounded like it was just in me that needed to be resolved now.

Sunday I talked with my mom and most of which was of her own personal things. I was continually telling her that she was wrong basically.
Finally, at some point it our conversation I felt done talking to her and trying to tell her how wrong she was. I just wanted to let her go. Then she started to change in what she was saying and I just listened to her. A little while later my mom said, “Have you notice something change in our conversation in the last 10 or 15 minutes?” I told her about what had happened inside of me. She had noticed it.

In our talk, my mom said something about that she just wanted us to let her go and let her be free. When she said that I could not see how I had been binding her to me. After I talked to Michael on the phone I all of a sudden saw it. When I saw it I just wanted to let her go free. I wanted to let her go. I was done talking to her telling her how wrong she was. I just wanted to love her and let her be who she is instead of trying to make her be someone she is not.

The 4th I sent this email to Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,
Father told this to me yesterday evening and I wanted to share it with You.

"Here I am, your Sacrifice. I lay with you. Let Me speak into you My Life. Let Me hold you. Let Me draw you. Let Me touch your heart. You are precious to Me, and I will not let you go. How I ache for you, My dear
little one, My little Shulamite. You hath doves eyes, My eyes. You are fairer than the lilies. You are altogether lovely. You are My delight."

This is what He told me this morning.

"You are beautiful, My love. I see no spot in you. You are My pure, chaste Virgin, My little Angel and Messenger. O, how I love and adore you, My bride. Let Me ravish you with My love. Let Me wrap you up in it and consume you, and change you. Let Me shine on your face with My Glory, My Son. Let Me adorn you as My special Bride. Let Me love you like no other. I do not fault you. I just see Me in you, and love you."

This evening I was thinking about when you told me that I'm walking down the road and I start feeling bad about myself I can still always do what He says. I realized that when I have felt bad about myself I thought He was gone and left me, and so how could I do what He tells me when I think He is not there. I was just seeing unbelief that I have harbored and
wanted.

There is just no hope for my self. I am just as corrupt as the world is and my heart continually cries out to Father. I need Him. O, how I need Him. And O, how I need Him more.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Eleana

He replied:

I appreciate very much hearing how Father speaks to you. That is how I feel also. I want you to know Father intimately, but to do that you need to fully know yourself. I have seen you come to this time and again. You are more and more knowing yourself. When you are washed away, then only your True Love will remain. You will not feel bad again.

Your Michael

The 6th, Friday night I came to the place of just letting go of everything. Letting go of God, letting go my salvation. I wrote this in my journal Sabbath: Last night I experienced a deep abandoning of myself to Father in a way I have never experienced before. Like a complete letting go of everything; a letting go of God, my salvation, my self-protection, like a giving up of everything including God. Nothing matters when you give everything up. There is nothing to protect… With the experience I had last night it is like I let my chains that I have bound myself with fall off me. I let me go free, instead of trying to make me be good. It is hard to explain all that is inside of me.

That week I came to the place of being my mom and dad’s daughter instead of the mother. I just wanted to help them. I accepted them for who they are. Friday night I dreamed about them and in the dream we were having a meeting with Michael, and He was talking about those who were cast off and He said that my mom and dad were not cast off. I thought it was very sweet. I am not casting my mom and dad off either.

During the meeting that morning something changed inside of me and instead of trying to figure out what Michael was saying and get it, I was just letting His words go into my heart and letting Father take care of the rest. If I forgot what Michael talked about, it was ok. Father was responsible for it. I just let His words disappear in my heart.

One day Shekel and I took my mom and dad's dog for a walk and I wanted to go see the Catholic church so we went to the front of the church and there was a man there with a dog. He started asking questions and he asked if Shekel and I were staying with them, and at that moment I felt like I was talking right to the devil. I told the man "NO."

Sunday, I wanted to go to the Catholic church and see their service. So my dad, Shekel, and I went. It was the first time I have ever been in a church service of any kind. When we went to the church service I found out that that man was the priest of that Catholic church. When we first went in, the priest was having the people call him father. He said, “Say it again,” so the people said, “My father.” My dad thinks that he may have been drunk. I know one thing that he acted real weird. He talked about marriage and a lot of what he said didn't seem to connect to anything and it didn't make sense. It was confusion. He said some things that Michael has said, but it had a different spirit.

I was feeling very furious. At times it was stronger than other times. Shekel and I were standing at the end of the pews. I felt like I couldn't leave until I said something. Shekel also felt the same. At one point it seemed that it was about to end, and I was forced to go up to were the priest was standing, on the backside of a table. He was talking about blood and bread. I don't think I was really paying attention to what he was saying. He kept on talking like he didn't even know I came up and was standing in front of him. I turned around and was looking at the people. Then I turned and looked at him again and then at some point this other man brought some water in a thing to him and the priest said he was now going to sprinkle peace on them. Then he took a scoop out of the water that the man brought and threw water in my face. It wasn't long after that, that I said, "Excuse me sir. You have many blood on your hands." He kept on talking like I wasn't even there. He was holding his head down almost like he was trying to hide. Then I spoke up even louder and said, "Your eyes are blind and your ears are dumb. You are deceived." As I was saying that, he stopped talking and was calling for a man named Russ. He was putting his head up like he was trying to ignore me. Then the man who gave the priest the water said that I was disrupting their service and they asked me to leave. I didn't know what to do at first but then decided that I should respect them so I started to walk back to the doors, and this man, I thought, was going to walk me out so I ran because I didn't want him to. I went back to where Shekel was and was standing there for a
bit then a man came up to me and said that father (the priest) wanted me to leave. So my dad, Shekel and I left.

It was a very interesting experience. I almost felt like I wasn't even there, and I had no fear of them or what they could do to me. I didn't even think of what they could do. I know what I did was not for anyone
there but for me. It was something I needed to do. They have what they want. That is why they do what they do. It was very yucky and made me way more grateful for our meetings. Our time with Michael is truly full of Life and Light

After I went to the Catholic church I felt like I shouldn't have and I thought about going to the priest and apologizing for interrupting their service. Every time I came to the conclusion that I would go talk to him it left me and I couldn't make myself go talk to him. I started to feel very confused and I could not tell anything apart. Then Father reassured me that it was ok what I did. I realized that the devil was accusing me of what I did and that is why I was feeling the way I was. I am letting Father take care of what I did and I don't feel I need to talk to the priest. I trust Father.

Tuesday, I was feeling like when am I going to be done? When will I stop going around in circles? When will I want to be done? I saw that it would take a miracle, an act of Father, to deliver me.

Wednesday I woke up and I felt I needed to be alone. I went for a walk, but I was feeling inside like I could not be quiet. Like I was just full of noise, and I was stressing out about it. Then I realized that I could tell Father what I was feeling and that I could trust Him. I told Father what I was feeling and gave it up. After I told Father I felt drawn to be alone and I could be quiet. This is what Father told me while I was on my walk. "Though you make your bed in hell, lo, I am with you there as well, and I will bring you out. I will take you up in My arms and press you into Myself. You will never see your earth, again. All you will see is Me. Trust Me, and I will do it."

I was feeling like Father was going to have someone take my place as one of the Seven. I gave it all to Father and gave it up.

Thursday I was feeling like I was just going to stay in this place of laying everything down and feeling like it was just going to stay the same and Father would not change me. I was feeling like Father would never deliver me, and He would not give me to pour plagues out. But I had to lie that all down, too. I want to let go of everything.

Something else I have had to let go is Michael. I have had to let go of being connected to Him, being close to Him. I have had to let go of everything, including the Pearl of Great Price.

There is so much that goes on inside of me that I don't know if I could tell anyone all of it. It seems so hard to speak my heart, because it seems I don't know how to say what is in there. What I do say doesn't seem to come out in the right words.

My heart cries out to Father. I ache so much.

I shared the things upon my heart with Michael and He replied:

Yes, little friend, I know.

Michael

After I shared it with Michael I read the following and sent it to Michael:

“Behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of. For oh! I love thee far to well to leave thee in thy self-made hell.”

He replied:

Thank you little friend. The universe will watch as you receive the desires of your heart.

Michael

Later, this song came to me and I sent it to Michael:

I can, I can, with the great I AM
I can do the unbelievable
I can, I can, and I know I will
Cause with Him all things are possible
Yes, with Him all things are possible

So, if God calls me to climb a mountain
I won't turn away
I'll follow Him
Cause by His strength
He will make a way
That’s why I say,

I can, I can, with the great I AM
I can do the unbelievable
I can, I can, and I know I will
Cause with Him all things are possible
Yes, with Him all things are possible

His reply:

Little Eleana,

If you can, then Father can do anything in you that He wants to do. If you won't turn away, then Father will not turn away. If you can do the unbelievable, then God will do the unbelievable in you. With God, all things are as possible as you believe that they are.

Your Michael

Friday, October 13th, I wrote this to Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,
The last few days I have been desiring Father to give me the conclusion to all that has happened for the past few months, to give me deliverance from myself. I realized that I can choose to step into Father’s deliverance for me and stop wondering when it will come. I can step into it no matter how I feel. I saw that I don't have to feel what I feel. I saw that I just
make what I feel up, and I feel the way I do because I want to feel that way. It is very simple. I can step into His resolution and stop living in and believing that I am not resolved. I can live in Father’s reality, NOW, this very moment, not in the future. And "I DO".

Here I come.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Shulamite

Father, I yield to Thee my life
Thine only shall it be
From earthly pleasures, sin and strife
I've turned, O Lord, to Thee
Unfettered from all earthly ties
From cruel change and scorn
I haste to Thee, where shadows flee
Before the cloudless morn

Father, I yield to Thee my will
I would submissive be
Content to lean upon Thy breast
And hear Thee speak to me
Grant me a heart in tune with Thine
To see as Thou dost see
That each desire, each word and thought
May breathe, dear Lord, of Thee

Father, I yield to Thee my all
For now in Thee I find
Within the haven of Thine arms
A love most wondrous kind
My doubts and tears lie all behind
Eternal bliss before
Lost in Thy love and wholly Thine
I'll rest forevermore

You are my Vision, O, Lord of my heart
Nothing can be to me all that You are
You are my best thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Your Presence my light

You are my Wisdom, You are my true Word
I ever with You, and You with me, Lord
You, my true Father, and I Your true child
You in me dwelling, and I with You one

You are my yielding, my Sword, and my Might
You are my Dignity, and my Delight
You are my soul's Shelter, and my high Tower
Raise me on heavenward, O Pow'r of my Pow'r

Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise
You, my inheritance, now and always
You, and you only, are first in my heart
High King of heaven, my Treasure You are

Husband of heaven, my only true Love
I rest in heaven's Joy - Your only Son
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
You are my Vision, my Lover, my All

"Precious morning, dawn is now breaking, how My soul ascends, I see now the vision, nothing left hidden, all truth now blends, Coming storm, great upheaval, though now no fear, and no more grieving, How long I have waited, all things ungated, all My Sons are leaving.

Precious noon, now appointed, all is light, and there is no blight, Close to My heart, I draw her in, her faith unfolding in My sight My soul is stirring, in sweet remembrance, holding My true love, I hold her face, looking upward, treasuring the promise above.

The bride's tears dry now, for I have applied now, My Own blood, Her child's light, now in her eyes, always wise, escapes the flood, My heart is opened, revealed, exposed, and all is plainly stated, Looking up now, eyes wide with expecting, her breath now bated.

Precious night, darkness now showing, this place of settled glory, Stars appearing, moonlight clearing, make bright the present story, Warmth enfolding, precious resting place, for darkness has no fear Dawning is coming, the light now awakens, all Sons now hear.

This is the day that the Lord has made, the day of His appearing, The false hearted, shifty eyed, lovers of their stomach, ever fearing, I see them no more, as the smoke ascending, winds blow them all away. It has come from the bride, born out of her side, the Child is her Way,

No more darkness, nothing hidden, all exposed and made plain, I stand naked, clothed only in brightness, all exposed in latter rain, My songs are ringing, I'm ever singing, sweet melodies ascending, Now all is clean, in promised drops, all sparkles in the transcending.

Precious bride, My love imploring, come upon My promised bed, For I Am on you, enfolded in you, eyes meeting, earth fleeting and dead, Lay upon Me, now hold Me closely, never let Me leave your room, You now know Me, never doubting, Child conceived within your womb.

Growing now, showing now, made all in all, in the present dawn, The rod of iron, now clearly ruling, eyes flashing, now sword drawn Son coming out now, standing tall now, His brightness fills the room, His Voice awakens, now greatly brightens, driving away the gloom.

He mounts His horse, white in the glistening light, muscles protruding, The others follow in close succession, now the faithless fear intruding, The steed rears back, one with the Son, knowing now the time is here, The sickle thrust in, the earth in its harvest, blood flows, all souls fear.

The brightness increases, the heat releases, souls pale, others are black, No more appealing, now no more concealing, the heavens roll back For the Voice of the One, sitting on His horse, now shocking, then shaking, No more intercession, no more succession, all things now quaking.

The bride is now quiet, in her repose, in her Husband's bosom lying, Now she knows, her face glows, for in her garments no more trying, Strangely quiet, waiting, watching, delivered by her rising Son, Her heart connected, now ever united, for in this end, her battle's won. ~Michael~"