Message: To whom it may concern,
I too, was apart of this
group, known to most people, as a cult. I really have no
words to describe how it was. I was known as the quiet shy
one. I was... hell depressed my whole teenaged years and I
was very unhappy. In fact, I was so unhappy that at times I
wanted to just end my life because leaving was not an
option. I was so afraid of going to hell and of the unknown
of the world; I was so sheltered from that I could not
bring myself to leave sooner. I did not know my family, as
in relatives, and I was raised as the cult being my family,
which for me worked for a while. To this day, I have this
anger, pain, and hurt down deep in my heart. I cannot
understand how a person who supposedly is doing God's work
can have sex with people who are less than a third his age.
How can a man have sex and call it holy if he is with a 14
year old? These acts are against the law and are sick and
perverted if you ask me. Wayne can f#!@ himself and die.
His bulls*** and lies are all superficial. What he wants he
gets and it has nothing to do with God, other than the fact
that he is using God as a justification for his actions.
How the f#!@ does he sleep at night knowing what he has
done? How can breaking up families, getting with other
men's wives, sisters, and mothers be O.K.? I wish I could
slap some sense into some of those people I shared 12-18
years of my life with and wake them up to reality and what
really is going on. Who cares what the hell he thinks or
says? If one listens to it
enough and is raised only knowing what he says, it
gradually grows on a person until it becomes an actual
reality. A person can become numb oh so quickly and start
to believe in the delusions they think are real. I do not
get it nor will I ever get it. After I was pretty much kicked out, I
found out how different everything soon was. I resorted to
alcohol and drugs to numb the pain. I even went so far as
to taking drastic measures such as cutting myself among a
few other things. I kept feeling that I wasn't good enough
and that I was a sinner. You know what though?
God forgives sinners and he loves them that is why Jesus
came and died for us isn't it?
I got help and now I am finally able to talk about what I
used to know for the most part of my life.
I just choose not to bring up
it. I do not attend church. I pretty much hate God
because of this psycho Wayne.
So, Wayne you can take your words and eat them shove them
up your own a@@ and find a way to make it make sense in
your own sick pathetic twisted head. I did not fall for
your antics because I saw a flaw in your whole scheme. You
are no better than Michael Jackson and the allegations that
he was accused of. You are no better than the people that
you say are committing sin. You are no better than any
murderer, rapist, pedophile, or the devil himself.
Many will
come in the name of God as the Antichrist...
and yep ladies and gentlemen I believe we have found a
guilty party. Lock him up, throw away the key, and pray to
God that he does not find your daughter, your wife, or your
sister and convince them he is God and wants to have a
consummation with them that is holy. No matter what you
call it, it still is sex and sex is a part of human nature.
I could go on for awhile but I won't I believe I have said
what I wanted to say.
~
An Ex-Cult Member